Ooooooook … This is going to be strange for me because, I am not a
writer but I’ll give it a shot. I am a very complicated person and just like
every other person, there are things I won’t want others to know about me and
there are things I will want people to know.
I DON’T WANT YOU TO KNOW that I am
scared of commitment. Wow! Yes! I really am scared of commitment. I have dated
about 5 girls and none of my relationships literally lasted more than 3 months.
I remember there was one that lasted for 5 months and this was because there
was no means of communicating that it was over. I hate the word ‘NO’. You cannot imagine how much I hate the word
NO. My fear of NO makes me not ask my dad for something’s but I got over it. I
am his child, he cannot kill me.
I am scared of misleading people. Unlike most
people, I don’t just give advice. Even if I do, I tell them to follow their
heart at the end. . I don’t want someone to wake up the next morning and say
‘that’s the guy who gave me a wrong advice’. I am scared of teaching people the
wrong thing even when I know the answer. So I say, ‘I am not so sure’ after
teaching. I am scared of being a disappointment to my parent. Unlike some
people who don’t have respect for their parent, I have the utmost respect for mine;
that is one reason I don’t do drugs. Fact is, if I do drugs and they find out,
they will shout but, they can’t kill me for it. However, deep down I know they
will be disappointed.
I am
scared of losing pretty girls. Yeah I know that’s weird but, who wants to
lose pretty girls? I love girls (L.M.A.O. That does not make me a ‘girl
maniac’. I am just being truthful). I don’t know why but, my heart beats faster
when am making out with someone and this is weird because I have done this a
billion times so why am I nervous?! I hate public embarrassment. For heaven’s
sake, if you want to embarrass me, do it in private. I love my parents because,
they will never embarrass me in public but for people who try to do it, I
always have a response for them.
I hate being
ignored. I mean who likes being ignored? Maybe some people are okay with it
but, I am not one of those people. I hate being pushed away. I am scared my
future might not turn out as planned … ‘what if I am not wealthy?’ ‘What if I
am not happy?’ ‘What if all the girls I have messed with come back to haunt my
ass in future?’ Okay, on a serious note, I’d rather not have you know I am n0t
as tough as I appear and I don’t have it all figured out.
I am like an open book but still,
there are things you might not know,
that I want you to know. Firstly, I am one person you’ll love to meet(Mayowa
can testify to that or not). I always have my friends back. I love friendship,
it keeps people going. I feel bad for people when they tell me they don’t have
friends because one person betrayed them. That’s a really sad excuse because
they are letting that person play a big part in their life.
People look
up to me, some are even my seniors. At times it scares me because, I am
expected to know what to do and honestly, Lams just acts like he knows what to
do secretly praying it turns out well. I am way smarter than you think. At times
I surprise myself.
I am not
ashamed to tell you that, I tried committing suicide before I was even a
teenager. Yes, it was a funny story but I tried it and it was an awful attempt.
I have once questioned if I was adopted but right now, I am glad to know I am
not.
I had bronchitis and it had a great influence
on my childhood. This made me reduce the way I played but, it didn’t stop me
from playing; am glad I didn’t stop playing. In primary school, I once tried
smoking paper. I was really foolish back then. I don’t smoke or drink. Not that
my parents won’t let me, but I don’t fancy the idea. Literally all my close
friends drink but it doesn’t move me.
I have been
heartbroken before. I didn’t think my heart was protected by a fire proof but,
I didn’t think I would be heartbroken at my age either. I didn’t even think the
girl would say no after saying yes and giving me hope. Girls and their
indecision; the male specie also suffers from indecision.
Moving on …
I want you to know that my mind is very
corrupt but, that doesn’t make me a bad person rather it makes me versatile in
knowledge. Knowledge can be good and bad but, it depends on how it is applied.
I will never take advantage of drunk girls. I want you to know I have never
lost anyone so close so I don’t know how it is to lose someone . So I guess I
won’t really know what to say or not to say to a friend that has lost someone
but, I will be there anyway. I do not like secrets because it is one of the
things that causes problems; I value honesty even when it’s inconvenient. I am
not sure these will inspire anyone but, I am happy to share them. Last but not
the least; I am one of the best people you’ll ever know.
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Our friends
go a long way in shaping our lives so be sure to pick right friends. Respect
your parents and BE USEFUL TO YOURSELF. Thank you for reading :D
LAMS .
