short stories

Hello! Thank you for following the blog. I'm going to be posting short stories for the next few days. Have fun reading and please do leave your comments :D  Just go out and party. Get drunk and get laid. Maybe just maybe you won't have to think about her and what you have lost. But wait was she ever truly mine to have and lose? Her lies, deceit blended so much with honey it safely hid the bitterness behind the warm hazel eyes. I felt like my miracle had come. Here was someone who was willing to see the world through my eyes, who saw behind the facade and slowly started filling the darkness of the past years with lights. Her strength kept me going without her even knowing but it seems I was like a servant and she was the master who was kind enough to extend some of her luxuries to me but soon found me unworthy and removed the privileges leaving behind thorns. I believed her whenever she said she had never been happier but was it all a lie or it was the truth mixed in lies?! January 25th 2012 a tall ebony skin coloured lady with a figure not so shouty but noticeable and a smile that fitted right on her lips walked into a banquet in a dress that didn't fail to reveal her shape but that made her look responsible. The make-up that was not too flashy but showed the beauty she carried. I couldn't contain myself and had to say hi. Hello! My name is Javier. A girl that flashed hazel eyes and a perfect set of teeth turned to me and said " Nice to meet you Javier" I'm not sure of how to pronounce it and she laughed sofly to hide her embarrassment but unknowingly to her that drew me to her and made me determine in my heart like I determined to win a soccer game at the age of 12 to have this girl. I replied it was fine. You got the pronunciation right. She smiled again and said my name is Lucy. I made sure I didn't give the stupid line of "what a beautiful name. It suits your personality as I knew not what her personality was but I was soon going to find out". A story began after that and there were complications but there was also an overriding sense of commitment, satisfaction and a conviction that I had found someone I truly belonged to and that belonged to me. February 14 2013, we attended a valentine banquet in the same room we had met. She perked me on the cheeks after a slow dance and swiftly, swiftly she walked out of the room and on the love I had immediately fallen a victim to. She walked out but I'm here trying to walk out too but with little or no success hoping I would succeed but more importantly, praying she would come back and be mine this time in the same room that she walked in on me and I was convinced she was mine yet in the same room she made it known that she never was mine..... It will just be like the others. I thought to myself and that was the mindset with which I started a relationship with a guy who I was determined would be no different from the rest and although there were signs from the very beginning that this might be different. That I might truly care and be affected by this one guy, I still made up my mind our story would be just like my story with the others. How naïve I was! I fought my emotions and tried desperately to conceal it but how long can you truly conceal something that is pushing you back with so much strength?! I tried to pull myself away when I knew I was falling deep. I refuse to be vulnerable I often thought to myself and even Brene' Brown's talk on the power of vulnerability and the beauty in being vulnerable could not move me to be vulnerable. Vulnerability Like Brown admitted gives an open window to be hurt but at the same time to truly love and feel . Regardless it was a chance I wasn't ready to take. Like bees that can't stay away from honey, I found myself going back and I knew I was in danger! I had truly felt and had officially become vulnerable! Ah Brene' Brown you are right on the "power of vulnerability". There came the stage of the inner battle of accepting the fact that I had become vulnerable and I tried to fight it. Funny cos everytime I tried, I was pulled in deeper but it was okay. The physics of magnetisation attracted me to a wonderful person who I was truly myself with and someone who made me feel being vulnerable isn't the worst thing in the world as I so often thought. Now its all over and there is no regret about being vulnerable. Although there are regrets, they are about what should have been done and not what wasn't done. There are some unspoken words but there is an understanding of the words not said and why they should remain "unspoken". There are times that I wish that yesterday should be today but today is today and today is good!.....